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Alexz Johnson {{PB for brynnavery}} [27 Oct 2008|11:28pm] I've made it a point to wake up every morning, 7 am whether I have classes or not. At times I've found myself either late for class and or having emergency meetings with the "the cars messed up I need cash to fix it" committee. Which usually consist of my parents and me if it's a dire need. I don't usually ask them for money because I hate being the spoiled, rich kid who gets anything and everything from their mommy and daddy. But my recently passed birthday my parents decided to take me out to buy a new car so that I could unwillingly give my old one to the junk yard. Despite the fact that it was going to take close to 5 figures to get the old thing fixed there was a lot of memories with the old clunker. When I went to the lot to pick out my car unlike other spoiled rich kids I didn't look for the most expensive but the most eco-friendly one. Like it or not, green is the way to go these days. I want to at least do my little part to make the earth a little healthier and a little greener. I wear organic clothing, use organic bedding and eat organic food. I recycle and when I finish school I really look forward to making my life and house green. I know it sounds hippie dippy but if people see me doing my part don't you think it might motivate them to do the same? I sure hope so. Enough about my convictions and such and on to the other aspects of my life. Life....what is that? I don't have one that's for sure because every aspect of mine involves either school or work and sometimes those two at the same time. There's plenty of days that I've brought my school work to my work work and even started on it on break and lunches. Most nights I get home at 12 or 1 in the morning so I don't have much time or energy to do school work any other time. Then it's up early thirty to get ready to go to class, eat breakfast and go to class which is stage craft and who wants to learn about the constructing and rigging of scenery, hanging and focusing of lighting, design and procurement of costumes, makeup, and recording and mixing of sound. Yep that's the boringness that usually starts of my day and ends it with exhaustion and the need to cry or collapse in the middle of the living room floor.It would have been so much easier to just take the allowance that my mom and dad wanted to give but I chose not too. I wanted to learn responsibility and still dealt with the fact that other kids would pick because I was as they call it "a spoiled rich kid.." and to be perfectly honest I hate that label. I'm far from spoiled and because of my decisions far from rich. I share an apartment with my ex boyfriend/ best friend to be exact. For those who would have thought that living with a guy would kill me since I have a major case of OCD it's the total opposite. He used to drink and do drugs and since my parents and I helped him with that addiction he's become a very structured and clean person. Believe me his OCD will overtake mine any day and remember I said mine was a major case. A dish out of place would literally kill him. But besides his anal retentive behaviors he's a good guy. My best friend before boyfriend if that was hard to believe and my best friend after boyfriend. We dated off and on for like seven years and decided to just be friends. It's seriously been a better friendship than I could ever want. Still it leaves potential dates scratching their heads and I don't end up with to many second dates. He keeps me sane and I keep him sane and sober and that's about a far as our relationship goes. It couldn't go any further because we'd end up killing each other we're so much alike yet so much different. If it weren't for me he wouldn't recycle and would smoke anywhere in the house he wanted. I hate the smell, the taste and the nastiness that lingers when it comes to smoking. I don't want to die of second hand smoke and I don't understand why anyone else would want to kill themselves with that crap either. Which is probably why Chase and I fight the most. We just moved into this new apartment....yes he is my roomie and he wants to pull out a cigarette and pollute my air so I tell him no and direct him to the balcony with a warning that if I have to pick up cigarette butts I'm going to force feed them to him for breakfast. So as I write this right now he's out on the balcony, drinking a beer and smoking a cigarette and probably cursing the day that he ever met me. Which was around 22 years ago when we were both 2 year olds running around in diapers. That's how long we've known each other. His parents or better yet his mom and sperm donor left him with his grandparents when he was an little bitty thing and they'd raised him until he went off to college. He's never complained and seriously he has probably the coolest grandparents in the world and they care for him just like he was their own son. Which is probably why he was and still is a good kid. As far as my parents go they always used to worry about me not making friends. I never was very talkative and very shy, but middle school is when I broke out of my shell and started to talk and be more friendly. Granted I'm no social butterfly but I will strike up a conversation if I find you interesting enough. I can't believe that I've rambled on and on and never talked about my brothers and sister. We have a big family and of course I'm the baby. Jakob is the oldest (32), Cam is (29) and Grace my only sister is (26). Jakob and Cameron both picked on me till I started to fight back. It started when I was 6 and they asked me to hold a red ant for me which ended up stinging or biting me one. Whatever it is they do and then the same day tore the head off my favorite stuffed animal mister snuffles. I still have that pathetic thing till this day. I think the boys stopped picking on me when I was 12 and playing a game of tennis in the court with them. To make a very long story short I took my tennis rackets to their heads. It ended with me getting my allowance taken away and being grounded from every possible activity that I enjoyed which included talking on the phone to Chase. They never bothered me again and I learned that violence only works for a little while and then there's major consequences or at the time so I thought. I learned my lesson and they learned theirs. My sister was the one that honestly always had the phone and was the biggest gossip in her high school days. Grace was the talking queen and made a habit of tying up the phone for hours at a time to talk with her flavor of the month. She was the typical teenager I suppose since teenagers a far from typical, but more or less awkward and often stinky. I'm not saying that she was stinky, but you get my drift. I always found myself admiring her from afar, but we never bonded until I reached adolescence myself. She's the only other person that I share everything with besides Chase. We're very close till this day but she still has her cell attached to her ear which is probably the reason mom and dad always call me and ask how Grace is doing. She owns her own boutique and designs her own clothes in that boutique and even take request. She makes 75 percent of my clothes and the rest I buy organic or at a vintage store. I know that if I ever needed anything any of my family would come running but Bailey would be the first to get there. Mainly because she lives so close but mostly because we're the closest. I love my family and adore my friends and if I make even more this school year I'll be a very, very happy woman but it's almost 5 in the morning and I won't be a happy woman when I have to wake up in 5 hours to make it to class on time. Peace out! post comment

Mark Feehily {{Irish boy bander}} [27 Oct 2008|11:20pm] I guess that I should start this thing out with a little information about myself. My full name for any of those who care and don’t…is Marcus Michael Patrick Feehily. My lovely mums the one that came up with that one, but you can call me Freddie. I have no clue but anyways I was born in Sligo, Ireland to Oliver and Marie Feehily. I’ve always a shy and backwards child and even to this day I am. It sounds crazy but I have a real chicken phobia - I can't let a hen near me! It’s a bird phobia period. When I was growing up my gran used to keep hens. I'd go to her house every day after school, and there was at least one that used to attack me. If I were locked in a room with a load of birds I'd probably have a panic attack and blank out. I see people in Trafalgar Square with their arms outstretched and birds on them, and I simply couldn't do that. I'd die on the spot. If there were a bird in the room I would freak. I don't mind pet birds, but it's just the wild ones - you don't know what they're going to do, they would fly straight at you! We’ve been busy, busy lads the past few months with tour of course and the new album. It’s been a fun ride and here Westlife is soon to be going into our 9th year of being a “man” boy band. The tour is still going fantastically well and even though we’ve played so many dates already, we’re still loving every single show, which is mostly down to the energy and enthusiasm we get from you lot in the audience. When we released the Love album, which we picked some fantastic love song from various bands to put on the album. Our first single off that album was “The Rose” and the second was supposed to be “Total Eclipse of the Heart”. Unfortunately we will no longer be releasing ‘Total Eclipse of the Heart’ as a single. Although we love the song, our touring commitments mean that we wouldn’t be able to give the single release the full attention it deserves. I’m a member of the band known as Westlife. The Irish boy band that has taken the world by storm for near 8 years now. We’ve had 14 UK #1 singles between the years 1999 and 2007, the third highest such total in UK history, behind Elvis Presley and The Beatles, and tied with Cliff Richard. We are also the only artist/group to win 'Record of the Year' in the UK four times all because our loyal fan base. Our group has so far sold more than 40 million records over 20 countries worldwide I’m not bragging really, just really proud of our achievements. We’ve have been awarded the Best Irish Pop Act for the consecutive seventh year on February 2, 2007. It shows our fan base in the country. We’ve received 28 platinum awards for their 8 albums. Our album sales in the UK alone touched the 10 million mark and it's expected to easily overtake the 10 millions before the end of the year, 2007. We’ve also been awarded as the only band to perform in the famous Wembley Arena for 23 times in 2006. The first 7 of our singles that we released went to number one. Back home makes our 7th number one album. I have to say though that if it hadn’t been for the fans we wouldn’t still be here today. Only that if we’d sold only a handful of tickets, our label would be like, ‘OK, what’s going on with Westlife?’ but it’s done the opposite, the fans have been amazing, and the reaction to the shows have incredible, so I have to thank the fans for letting us stay here and sticking with us. By supporting the albums and supporting the tours they’ve been keeping us as successful so thanks a billion for staying with us and that only makes us want to give back more in our shows and albums and videos. It’s after the shows that get me the most. When I come offstage, I’m just so buzzed up and then all of a sudden you’re offstage in your hotel room. It’s very difficult to say ‘right then’ and order a cup of hot chocolate and go to bed. I usually won’t go to bed before two or three o’clock unless I’m really tired. I just stay up chatting to the boys or a friend who’s over, maybe goes for drinks with them. I’m a bit of a nocturnal person anyway, so I sleep in ‘till twelve or one. So, later on after the show, Shane and Nicky will be going on to spend time with their families. I have to congratulate Nicky on the birth of his twins anyway…though he won’t be seeing this anytime soon, but where was I? I’ll probably turn into a bloody homebody and stay in tonight. Try to wind down and get some good rest before we head back out on the road. It was hard for a while, having to hide my sexuality, but being in love with someone and in a relationship was something I craved and really wanted. I’ve had that for the past two years and it’s been the most positive change I’ve ever experienced. He’s absolutely wonderful. He lived with me in my apartment and I still love him very much. I wanted people to know the truth about my sexuality. I am gay and I'm not asking for any sympathy, or to be a role model to anyone else. I simply felt it was the right time for me to let people know the truth. I've never tried to hide who I am from anyone, but I'm a very private person and in the past I haven't felt the need to say anything about my sexuality. But I want people to know I'm very comfortable with who I am. I think the culture we live in today is different and that people’s attitudes towards homosexuality have changed. I don’t think my life will change dramatically as a result of me doing coming out and saying this. I’m still the same person I was the day before. I’m sure Westlife fans will be pleased that I’m happy. I don’t think it changes anything. I’m a very private person and I don’t think I owe it to anyone to go into details about my life in the least. I'm really trying to give every last bit of energy to the band, and to thinking about the band and what we're doing next. But at the same time, it’s part of human nature to think about love and meeting someone special. I’d came to the conclusion that If I waited long enough that hopefully love would come my way, maybe when I least expect it. But I would like to say that I’m happy, and that I’ve found someone who is a real companion. It does get lonely being on the road with the band sometimes and I’m very happy now I’m in a relationship with someone who makes me laugh. You can't really help who you love and I've fallen in love with one of the most caring and loving men that I know. In 2005 we planned on getting married, but when can that be done when we never really have any time off. All the lads of Westlife have settled down and are in relationships, so why can’t I be? I haven’t gone to great lengths to try and hide anything from anyone. post comment

AIM examples [27 Oct 2008|11:11pm] AIM Example 1 Writer 1::He walks out onto the front porch and sat on the front steps, looking up at the clear night sky. Sitting his phone down beside him he stretches his legs out and looks around as well:: Writer2: *She walks along the side of the road, knowing better than to be there at this time of the night. But when her band took time off she was left with nowhere to go but back to North Carolina. She could head on over and wake Jeff but he was probably fast asleep...what caught her off guard was the light coming from the house she knew all too well. Cringing she took a turn to the right, going down the unpaved driveway. What was the worst he could do, scream and call the cops, at least she'd get home safely that way.* Writer 1 ::He stands up from the stairs and stretches his legs again, looking around the property. He sighed and ran a hand through his hair, looking down the driveway for some unknown reason. He squinted a little seeing the outline of someone he walked toward them a little, trying to see who it was. He knew that it wasn't Jeff or anyone of his friends at this time of night so he walked back over towards the front door and grabbed his phone:: Writer 2 *The gravel beneath her feet could have waken up anyone nearby, it had to be there on purpose, as sure as she was that Matt wasn't even asleep. At the sight of his car being right there, Amy froze still as a statue. As the light from the porch hit she could see his figure moving about, not having any desire to piss him off further.* ***** *was all it took, more than sure he'd recognize the voice anywhere* Writer 1 ::He stops dead in his tracks and turned around, thinking to himself that voice sounded a lot like her. He walks down the driveway, meeting her halfway and just looks at her for a moment. He opened his mouth but no words came out and he realized that he probably looked like an idiot so he shuts his mouth, waiting for her to say something: : Writer2 *She ran a hand through her red hair, then both at the same time not daring to smile in any way that would set him off.* "I know I should have called, or sent a dog with a note but...um, I was scared you wouldn't wanna see me anyway. At least now if you tell me off I know it'll be true and I won't have to assume and then it turns out it's something else. I just...I..wanted to see you." *her eyes had a bad habit of not looking at him at all, similar to that night when he had found out. Only this time, she wasn't hiding anything.* AIM Example 2 1::Taking into consideration their last encouter Amy had seen a big change of how they felt around each other. Of course nothing was yet set into perfection, it had never been, but at least they could joke around and actually hug without wanting to run halfway to the border state. On her way over, she had made a stop by the mexican restaurant to pick up some food, knowing he would have only awake mere hours ago. As she stood now in front of the main door, the bag of food in one hand, she leans over to press the doorbell. Now the waiting began.. 2::- After just coming hom from a good work and taking a long shower, he dries off and wraps a towel around his waist before he runs down the stairs and into the livingroom. Walking over to the front door he makes sure that his towel isn't going to fall off and opens it, figuring its a friend or family member. Seeing Amy stand there he's a little shocked and smiles nervously at her- Hey there....uhmm...come on in. -He holds the towel around his waist and steps back, allowing her some room to come inside- 3::She was looking about the front of the house, not wanting to seem like her eyes were trying to look through the door into the inside. When hearing the commotion going on, her body turned fully to go back to looking forward. "Hey Matt," she smiles, "hope you don't think I'm stalking you or anything, I figured you awoke and you might be hungry." And so she raised the bag up to show that her visit wasn't a fluke. More than willingly Ames accepted the invitation and walked inside of the living room, choosing not to make any comments of how he was dressed. "I'm not interrupting anything, am I?" 4::- He laughed nervously again and rubbed the back of his neck, watching her walking. He shuts the door and turns to face her, smiling some- I just got outta the shower actually, I am starving...- He watches her a few minutes more before he realizes that he should go upstairs and change- Uhm...make yourself at home. You know where everything is....let me go get some clothes on and I'll be right back. -He starts walking towards the stairs and stops, looking back at her to wait for a response- 5::She chuckled softly, heading her towards the kitchen to take out what she had brought. "Don't be silly Matt, it's almost three o'clock and you didn't eat yet, you're starving. Besides, I've seen you in less." Placing the bag on top of the counter, she moved around the space to grab plates and what have you as if she had never left a day. "Come on, sit down and eat, here. I'll even go grab you your clothes meanwhile." 6::-He looked at the clock and started towards the kitchen, looking at her. He sits at the table and scoots up to the table, watching her move around like she had never left and smiles softly.- It's like you've never left......-He stops himself and sits up straight, looking at the food that she had brought.- Everythings still in the same place....everything. But anyways...-He stood up and started toward the fridge and opens it, rummaging through it- 7::She stops dead in her tracks when he pases that obervation, a hand on the counter and one by her forehead. "I know, right? It's crazy." From the higher cupboard she rose up onto her toes to grab a glass for him, "here you go, I'll be right back," And so she squeezed past him to go up the stairs, the rooms were the same controlled mess like before. A few doors down Amy opened the entrance towards his bedroom, scanning about to find what he may need to actually put on. All the while her eyes diverted anywhere but to look towards the bed, it was still a sore spot for her. "Easy, everything is black," mumbling to herself, she came back down the stairs with the clothes neatly folded. 8:: - He grabbed the cup and nodded, grabbing a bottle of water from the fridge he sat the cup down on the counter and sat back down. He looked around at the food for a moment and started fixing himself a plate. Deciding that he should wait for her to come back before he actually starts eating- 9:: Appearing back into the space, she places the stack of clothes on the chair next to him. Seeing that he was still just sitting there, Amy chuckled. "Am I gonna have to force feed you now? I read your blog, it's all your favorites and no fat." Walking around the counter, she places her arms upon it to lean forward into his direction. "So..how are your ribs holding out?" AIM example 3 Me: ***** was struggling with her bag and phone as she said a few curse words under her breath. Between the airplane ride and lack of sleep she was tired...or maybe it was just jet lag. She shrugged her shoulders and put everything down as she started looking through her list of numbers, finding his she dialed his number and waited for him to answer Them: He picked at his redish hair idly in between flipping through the script in front of him, resisting the urge to yawn boredly. It wasn't that the script was boring, just that he'd already looked through it a few times already. The call was a welcome distraction from boredom and he reached for his phone eagerly, answering. "Hello?" Me:"Bet you couldn't guess where I am?" She asked, grabbing her things as she stood out front of the airport, completely lost on what to do or where to go. She rested the phone on her shoulder as she fished through her purse, grumbling a little. Them: He paused and stopped what he was doing, obviously surprised. "My stalker?! How're you?" he asked, suppressing the urge to smile. Hearing the grumbling, he made a bit of a face in concern. "Is something wrong?" ME: "Your stalker...one that you don't mind stalking you?" She asked as she took a seat, just looking around for a moment. "I would be better if I knew what to do or where to go around here." She tapped her chin and smiled a little, thinking. " Looking through my purse and talking to you has percieved to be a problem." Them: "I definitely don't mind." He closed the script and pushed it aside. "Where are you? Here? Now that's stalkerish," he joked. It was a long shot, but the only thing he could think of. He laughed at her last words, completely taken by surprise by the entire phone call. Me: "Ohh well I wouldn't want to be stalkerish. I'll just go and get a new ticket. Head back home then." She grinned and stayed firml planted where she was, not saying another word. She was waiting on his reaction. Them:"Wait!" He laughed. "When you can come and hang out with us in a hotel?" he asked next. "There's no competition. Well, there shouldn't be. Flights aren't as fun." Me: She laughed and stretched her legs out a moment, leaned back against the seat that she was sitting in. "You know...I find that always works. Hang out in a hotel? Which one do you think I would you rather do? No contest I just don't...I'm not too sure about what to do. Get a cab?" Them: "Yeah, or..." He stopped to think. "I could try and find you. Or send a car to where you are." He laughed at the whole thing, imagining how crazy it must seem, but happy nonetheless. Me: "I'm at an airport. Just sitting here by myself. " She laughed softly and leaned against the table. " I shouldn't have just showed up but I asked if you'd mind in comments and you never answered me. Them: "What airport. I'll send our driver out to come and get you. Joys of Warner Bros." He blinked a little, trying to remember if he had commented. "Are you sure? I thought I replied saying it was fine." post comment

Britney Spears [27 Oct 2008|11:09pm] Sometimes life has a way flipping you 360. My momma always told me that its darkest right before sunrise or the storm always gets worse before it gets better. I never really took those things to heart. Of course I was a stubborn girl and I guess that not too much has changed with me…I’m still stubborn just all grown up. Yes, Britney Jean Spears is a grown woman with a family and soon to be career…. again. I’m trying to get my body, my voice and everything else back in shape. I go to the dance studio and dance my heart out and I even bring the boys along sometimes. I can’t for the life of me get away from the negativity that the paparazzi seems to bring with them. I’m not a good mother, I’m fat, and I could never make a comeback from everything that’s gone on. Well, life goes on and when something bigger and better comes along for them the attention might be taken off me. It would definitely be a relief to say the least. That’s all that I want for me and my babies is peace, even a little bit of normalcy. Like I’ve said before, I am determined to find as much normalcy as possible. Britney here and right now my life is anything but normal. What you read in those magazines 99.9% of it isn't true. They thrive on making us as celebrities miserable. I’ve had my fair share of media time, well actually more than my share of media time. Most of it, negative, but honestly I just shrug it off. Lately though, it seems they've always caught me at my worst. They can be relentless and just down right cruel. It comes with the territory and it used to be fun to sit and read what they had to say. But seriously I’m just Britney, sweet, down to earth, crazy, caring little southern girl. Yeah, I’ve done something’s that I wished I hadn’t but all and all I don’t regret a thing. I’m happy, healthy and what else could you ask for. Born Dec. 2 1981 and raised in Kentwood, Louisiana. I've always been performing, from a young age. My momma always would tell me that no matter what was going on around me I could always be heard singing. After taking extensive dance and vocal lessons and performing in numerous talent shows and fairs, I auditioned for "The Mickey Mouse Club" when I 8; however I was way too young to get the part. Instead momma, Jamie Lynn, and I moved to New York were I starred in several advertisements and an off Broadway play called, “Ruthless”, were I was an understudy for Natalie Portman. Well Anyway, I auditioned again when I was 11 and this time I made the cut. I worked with the likes of Justin Timberlake, Christina Aguilera, Ryan Gosling, and JC Chasez. As a Mouseketeer, I received extensive training in dance, drama and singing and had to grow up a lot during that time. However the show was canceled two years later and I returned home to the “normal teenager thing.” I soon grew restless of the normal and I just wanted to sing and do my thing. I worked for a longtime and paid my dues to get where I am today. I returned to New York at age 15 and set about auditioning for pop bands and recording demo tapes, one of which landed me a deal with Jive. I've never had a problem staying in the spotlight with everything that surrounds me. My career has seriously been built on controversy and people keep begging for more. Now back to my career, As the album's third single "Every time" began to receive airplay, I went out on my fourth world tour, The Onyx Hotel Tour. The tour grossed over $34 million USD and was seen by over 600,000 fans in North America and Europe, but the remaining dates were canceled in June, after I...again injured my knee during the filming of the video for the single "Outrageous." I was taken to an undisclosed hospital, where I received an MRI that showed floating cartilage in her knee. The following 37 stops on the tour were canceled; costing me $750,000 to $1,000,000 a night in guaranteed fees from concert promoters. It was about the time that I released the video for “Every time.” So I’m sure that most of you have heard, read, or seen the whole rehab mess. Yes, I was staying out too much and drinking way too much. I’d made the mistake of hanging out with the wrong people, but like I said I’m stubborn and I have to learn the hard way. I stayed my turn and am happier and healthier in the long run. Alcohol and lack of sleep do things to you, to your body that’s just plain destructive. I want to live a happy, healthy life for my boys. Since my time in rehab I’ve tried to stay home more and spend time with Jayden and Sean. They need me right now and I really do need them. They keep me sane and keep me grounded. There’s nothing more grounding than having baby puke all over you or having baby food flung all over you. It’s funny now, but when it first happens it’s not funny at all. At that time Kevin and I had started dating. Kevin and I became engaged in 2004 and in September of the same year we were married. Sean Preston was born September 14, 2005 at 1pm. Jayden James Federline was born September 12,2006. My boys are the lights of my life; I don't know what I'd without them. Despite the rumors and the constant wondering of our relationship, no things are not great. I do love being a mother and a wife, but It seems like to me the only thing I'm doing is being a mother. Its tough to be in a marriage when the other partner does want to be there and isn’t. So, I've filed divorce and yes I am finally happy. Lets speak on my ‘comeback’ as they like to call it. I like to call it getting my feet wet again. I miss being on stage and I miss singing for people and having them cheer. When my singing ability is challenged now that’s when I have a problem. I am not fake and I did not lip-synching any of the stuff. Some use backtracks when their singing but anyways…. where was I? Oh yeah, I did a few local shows in LA at the House of Blues and got good feedback, even though they were only 20 minute sets. Hey it’s a start right? That’s where most artists started was in bars and clubs and worked their way up…. maybe just maybe I’m doing it right this time. Of course I would be nowhere without my fans they made me and they can break me. Though I believe that my most loyal and trusting fans have stood by my side…its them that will make me a star again. post comment

Alexz Johnson [27 Oct 2008|11:08pm] I’ve had the blessing to sing and act in my career but my passion of course is first and foremost is music. I've loved music since I was two-years-old. My mom said I came out of the womb singing.Music's my passion way more than acting. And actually the funny thing is I started doing Instant Star so I could buy studio equipment to work on my music in my basement. I lucked out because Instant Star is a music show as well – so I got to write songs for it. The show explores my characters life after she won this American Idol type show. It's a lot like American Idol in a sense but Instant Star picks up where American Idol leaves off. What happens after they win the contest. What happens with their career? Who's in control? It exposes the inner-workings of the music business. I'm so blessed, like I said before, to have been able to sing and act in my career. All I want to do is have a record and be a legitimate artist. Not do it all. I don't want to be the girl who has the clothing line and the perfume line and the movies. That doesn't interest me. I want to have a record. And I know you have to take certain stepping stones to get what you want to get in life. Instant Star has been such a blessing for me because it opened up so many doors. I was able to come to New York and do a showcase for the major labels. And I wrote songs for the first season of Instant Star so I was getting the craft down. Somewhere I got off track and started talking about weird stuff. I've always, always avoided the "Idol" contest and shows, not that there’s anything wrong with them. I just wanted to take the slow path and grow as a singer and songwriter, and I wanted to keep control of my music and career. I was extremely excited to have landed the role of the young star, Jude Harrison and I’m extremely excited for the new season. We’re filming the 4th season right now; we usually film for about two weeks and get two weeks off. So, I’m thinking that maybe I would come down to California and see some old friends. I know that I’ve probably picked the wrong time to come down, but maybe I can catch up with a few of you out there. My character on Instant Star, Jude Harrison In a lot of ways I wish she was a stronger person, and that she would go after what she wants at her record label, G-Major. I wish she wouldn't feel so obligated to be what they want her to be. Sometimes I get frustrated with her character and I just think, 'No Jude! Do your own thing, you don't owe anybody anything. I feel like Jude is kind of like me a couple of years ago. We both write, we're both very passionate about our songs and singing, and we both want our music to be true to who we are. You know it's weird, because I don't really get involved with the writing. We've got great writers and I really respect them and trust them. It’s a running joke on set, but sometimes I find that the storylines really hit close to home for me. Usually whatever happens in my life somehow ends up in the show. The album that I am working on well its kind of hard to explain what it is. The songs are very percussive –symphony stuff and Celtic-sounding. That's the kind of thing I like to write. And I wrote 45 songs in Los Angeles and London. All the songs that are going to be on the record were written with my brother, Brendan. So, right now I want to take a step back and focus on the music and have a record – no matter what happens to it. I know that I said that it would be out the end of last year, then the beginning of this year. I had been signed with Capitol Records and the album has now been delayed because of Capitol Records being bought out. In February 2007, EMI announced a merger of Virgin Records and Capitol Records into the Capitol Music Group, as part of this restructuring, hundreds of staff from multiple divisions were laid off and many artists were cut from the roster. Which suck majorly. I've been spending a little more time at home and less time out partying. Unless its with my close friends and in a home of theirs. I don't know, I guess I'm becoming a homebody. Which I think is a good thing, though I miss my momma's cooking and my brothers and sisters running around screaming at the top of their lungs. I use the quietness to write my songs and focus on my music. I still can't get over actually living in my own place though, I could seriously be living the single, free, wild young adult life that most my age live. I don't wanna get kicked outta my apartment building though, the piano and guitar is probably loud enough for them. Being as I live in Canada I can legally drink so I sit back, watch a tv show...most of the time alone and drink a little. Sometimes I drive over to my parents house and pick on my mom or dad. But before long I have to get outta there, those kids would drive me insane after awhile. I was recently the music artist of the week on askmen.com. I didn't expect it at all and let me tell you, what they said made my week...no my year. Seeing things like that make me feel like I'm actually doing something right. I'm just me and that's who I am. I'm Alexzandra Spencer Johnson, from Canada...the little girl with the big voice. I'm not a little girl anymore, but I'm definitely coming into my woman-ness...is that even a word? My personal life leaves a lot to be desired. I've had a few boyfriends here and there if you can even call then that. I just don't see me with a boyfriend anytime soon. Let me get this damned CD out and then I'll think about it. post comment

Mandy Moore [27 Oct 2008|11:06pm] So, I've been sitting here on my free time, for a couple hours at least, trying to figure out what to tell you good folks, contemplating on what to write. I wanted to start this out with my full name, birth date, and where I was born.. only to think it would be starting out so boring that none of you would read it all the way through. It's not that this is to terrible tough its more of where should I start. As a child I spent the majority of my time watching musicals that I loved. Through it was probably around 6 that I had my first thoughts of being a performer. We had watched a performance of Oklahoma, I noticed how much fun the leading girl was having and right then and there, I decided that was what I wanted to do with my life. Thank God my parents allowed me to pursue my passions. They enrolled me in several theater camps which only solidified my desire to perform. I started singing at sporting events which landed me the nickname, "The national Anthem girl." After one of my performances, two men approached me interested in recording some songs. Little did I know that that demo would land me a record deal, before I knew it I was in the studio recording my first album. I had no clue that it would leave me where I was going. I was just glad to have the opportunity to sing. Being so young and having fame pushed on me. I managed to keel a level head and keep my family and friend very close to me. My first two albums , So Real and Be with you went platinum, this success allowed me the opportunity to tour with such popular acts as The Backstreet Boys and N'SYNC. My music career flourished that was until I wanted to break away from the commercial bubble gum pop image. For the third studio album I really wanted to break away from the bubblegum pop image that I had acquired and show depth and talent as a recording artist. The self-titled album that emerged from this decision proved to be a poignant, lyrically inspiring collection of songs that wowed music lovers and critics too. However, the album was not as commercially successful as my previous and in spite of the critical acclaim and fan admiration, many saw the album as unsuccessful compared to that of my pop-counterparts..I don't know, I hate to come across as bragging or anything like that. You've probably heard more from the movies that I have starred in rather than my music career. I started out doing small parts in films such as, Dr. Doolittle 2 and The Princess Diaries. It wasn't till I was offered a role in the film adaption of Nicholas Sparks' best-selling novel A Walk To Remember that audiences began to take notice of my acting skills. I've shown diversity by taking on parts in films like How To Deal, where I played a young woman with a horrible outlook on love, as well as Saved!, playing an over-religious goody two shoes who is hell-bent on "saving" all my friends from sinful temptations. I'm a spiritual person and a religious person. But for me, it's all a personal thing. I'm not someone who'll say, 'This is what I believe, and you should too!' It's more of an internal, quiet, grounded, fulfilling thing for me. That's why I love doing Saved! so much. It shows the over zealous, crazy side of Christianity. It's not about forcing it onto someone, they see it in your actions and on your face. I know that its not very politically correct to talk about religion, but I'll be a little politically incorrect for a moment. I want to learn about a different religion. I grew up Catholic, but my grandfather was Jewish. Knowledge about other religions can help you understand your own better. I think it's kind of hypocritical to believe one thing and don't know about any others. A friend once told me it made her sad to think that if we were to pass away, I would go to heaven but our Jewish friend wouldn't because she doesn't believe in Jesus. That totally sent me over the edge! I'm happy with what I believe, but I'm open to the fact that there are people with different faiths, and they might be as passionate about theirs as I am about mine. Wow, I got a little off the subject there, the other day I finished the new Richard Kelly film, the man who did the Donnie Darko film. Brilliant film, wouldn't you say? Anyways the film was called Southland Tales, just finished it out here in LA. I'm finishing up the new album which I couldn't be happier about. Just finished the movie Dedication, Because I said so and in the middle of filming License to Wed and getting ready to start filming two movies, Safety Glass and Twist of fate. Damn that was a mouthful. So the rumor mill is really turning on me lately. I'm seriously overwhelmed by the rumors that have been going around. I seriously would like to know where they've gotten started or who their 'reliable' source is. I was just made aware of a rumor that has been going around that I'm in rehab...nice one guys! Sitting here in a Coffee Bean which is quite a distance from the supposed Connecticut rehab center that I have checked myself into. I'm literally saddened that people would stretch as far as they have to make such rumors which at the end of the day is downright hurtful. If I have an addiction to anything it would be the Coffee Beans English Breakfast Latte, if that's bad then sign me up! Anyways, this is Mandy Moore,actress,model, and singer. Newly single and really digging the single,free life. Yeah Zach and I broke up. I'm a busy person, but call me sometime and we'll hang out. Go for coffee or lunch or something. post comment

Kate Middleton {{Celebrity by association}} [27 Oct 2008|11:02pm] As if it's not tough enough to be under strict media scrutiny, my every move being documented in picture and stories, some true and some fabricated. Of course I have worries and concerns about being part of the Royal family. I don't come from an aristocratic background nor do I come from old money. I'm just a very normal middle-class woman whose family has done very well for them. We don't live on huge estates nor do we have titles before our names. I have love and it’s the greatest gift that any can have. It’s worth more than money, worth more than any background and much more than titles that we can have. But I believe that I’ve already gotten way ahead of myself. I happen to do that sometimes, so please forgive me. I was born Catherine Elizabeth Middleton the 9th of January in Reading, Berkshire, England. As I was talking before I mentioned that my family had done very well for themselves, I meant that they were self-made millionaires. They own a mail order company that sells children’s party products. I went to various schools. Which I'm sure would confuse you to pieces, being as the school systems are completely different. I went to St. Andrew's School, Pangbourne until I was 13 and attended Marlborough College and Later the University of St. Andrews in Fife, Scotland where I met my Wills. Signing up for a degree in History of Art at St Andrews brought me into contact with another student, William Arthur Philip Louis Windsor – second in line to the British throne and Britain's future king. While sharing a cottage together in the Scottish town, we fell for each other and very hard. Our relationship started around Christmas of 2003 and ended April 2007, long time eh? I'd do it all again to be with Wills. During Wills and our time at St Andrews we were protected from tabloid scrutiny by a gentleman's agreement between newspaper editors and the royal household. I was all too aware that the bubble of privacy would burst as soon as we graduated. While my sudden celebrity wasn't easy for me, I tried to handle myself with a calmness and dignity. Still I'm the one that doesn't give interviews or even talk to the press. It's not because I'm too good, but because privacy is something I value along with Wills and his family. We've even gone so far as to not be photographed together to make it easier on OUR relationship. Upon completing our education we both moved to London where, as expected, we found ourselves facing an array of new challenges.I set up home in the capital, and accepted a position as a junior buyer with High Street fashion chain Jigsaw. While Will threw himself into the rigors of military training. Which brings me to Wills, what can I say? I’m not very popular with ever girl that’s ever has been or does fancy him. They’re always making assumptions about my intentions and when it comes to him, but like he’s said before. No one really knows the real us and what goes on behind close doors. He knows me better than I know myself and likewise. I can’t imagine being anywhere else or with anyone else for that matter. Of course it’s been an off again, on again relationship but who hasn’t had those? Being in the spotlight or fishbowl of some sorts doesn’t help us at all. It’s just a given and you’d think we’d know by now how to deal with it. It never gets easy, just bearable. Harassment from the Media was something that I couldn't understand. I have never done anything of significance to warrant such publicity. I couldn't go on my own daily outings anymore but as I said before, I'd gladly take them on for Wills, but I just needed time to adjust to all the attention that I'd been getting. After four years of it, things have become much easier to deal with. I believe that I’ve divulged a little too much detail as it is. Like I’d said before, I like to keep as much of my life as private as possible. post comment

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